My Worth

Where doe's my worth come?
Why do I  feel  far from God?
Lord, I long to be close.
I long to be in your presence.

When will I stop judging my worth,
Through my husband,
My Children,
My Family,
My Church,
My Friends,
My weight,
My looks,
Through all Worldly Ways.

Why can't I see my worth through Your eyes.
I compare myself to others,
I feel incomplete,
I can't compete.
As a wife,
A mother,
A church member,
A Friend,
Through my outward appearance.
I don't compare, where do I find value?

Lord, this fight to be well liked by the World,
Has my mind preoccupied.
So much, I lose sight of you.
I am tired.
I am frustrated.
My strength is at an end.

Where is my value?
Is it in other's view of me?
Through my husbands affections?
Whether my kids, think I am the best?
Whether people look up to me?
I, need to know I matter!!!

Lord, I know it is in you!
Somehow my heart has forgotten.
Forgotten the Promises in your word.
Somehow I have began following the World.
Trying to make the World approve.
Trying to make the World happy with me.
In my attempts to make the World like me.

The world has let me down.
Has forced anger and pain into my soul.
How do I get back into a right relationship with You.
Lord, I long for you,
I need you to tell me again,
Tell me you love me, I have Heavenly value,
Tell me you are proud of me, and I can stop the fight.
The fight has weakened me.
Lead me back to my true love.

Lord be my hope.
Help me to serve only You.,
Help me to study your word,
Help me to love the World, as you do
Most of all Lord, Help me to see me through Your eyes.
Not my own, or any others.
Through Your eyes only!

Lord, touch my heart.
Give me a spirit of love and faith.
A spirit that only gives up fighting, when you begin fighting on my behalf.
Give me a spirit of peace and serenity.
Help me to see myself through the eyes of my Maker.